My North Node in Libra (Life Path, Soul Purpose)


I have just recently discovered what a north node in our astrological charts is. I thought it was just some kind of a worthless asteroid (but it turns out that these asteroids are hugely important too, like Chiron) or placement, because my north node is in Libra and my sun is also in Libra. I thought that one’s sun is automatically his north node. But it’s not how it is, silly me. I just happened to be one lucky soul to have my north node conjunct my sun in Libra! I was born a week before the solar eclipse in 1995. I think it’s a lucky placement. And I’ll tell you why later on. I also think my Virgo ascendant and my Cancer moon were carefully picked out for me in this lifetime to balance out my karma. I thought they were weak placements but no. They are just right for me. And I am lucky to be who I am now, like what my favorite psychic told me. And I just found out why. Silly of me to not include the lunar nodes (Rahu and Ketu) in my astrological studies. The south node tells us about our past life/lives and the things that we have to leave behind in order to live out our chosen north node (our life purpose in this current incarnation) to balance out our karma in our past lives.

North Node in Libra, South Node in Aries

Having my north node in Libra right now indicates that I may have lots of past lives wherein I am always independent, courageous, fighting, in survival mode, selfish, self-centered, achieved things for myself by myself, etc. I might have been a soldier or something or someone war-like. I might have been a leader, maybe a tyrant queen or king, I don’t know for sure. Perhaps I have developed a massive amount of masculine energy in my past lives that I now have to balance it with feminine energy. Libra is an air sign but it is seen as feminine because it values harmony, peace, relationships, ideals, and art as opposed to Aries who likes action, violence, selfishness, etc. My moon now is also in the sign of Cancer in the 11th house. The Cancer moon, as we all know, is very fragile, vulnerable, and annoyingly sensitive. With my moon in cancer, I feel others’ feelings as if I am a sponge. I can also feel the energies underneath the facades although sometimes I can deceive myself because of my Neptune in the 5th house – it makes me delusional, especially in the romance department. Even if my moon feels that something is wrong or missing, I’d still be in love with my own ideas and delusions. My moon is also placed in the 11th house, which is the house of Aquarius. It is the house of humanity, peer groups, larger groups, friends, etc. Therefore, my moon placement may mean that I find comfort in my group of close friends or female friends (because the moon represents the mother or the feminine) or that I find comfort in nurturing or taking care of humanity. Moon in Cancer can be selfish when it comes to feeling its own overwhelming emotions instead of understanding other people, but when placed in the 11th house, it is a selfless placement. It supports my north node in Libra because it is my destiny to move away from my innate selfish tendencies. My Virgo ascendant used to be an annoying placement to me, seeing as how it made me so shy, reserved, and self-conscious – but it also is a selfless placement. It makes me want to operate behind the scenes, support others, and help others. It makes me shy away from the spotlight, and give chance to others. The self-consciousness brought by the Virgo ascendant have afflicted my self-esteem but when I come to think of it, it is better to be self-conscious and be worried about what other people think of you when you are moving away from the selfish and inconsiderate tendencies of past Aries lifetimes.


People with an Aries south node like me have an intimidating sense of individuality. Our south node or past life energies are still felt in our childhood, because we are still fresh souls back then. I remember when I was a child, I was so selfish that I used to get really angry whenever my little sister touches my toys. I also hated having a little sister because I was not used to the act of sharing. I wanted things for myself and I was never considerate of her. Perhaps the universe gave me a little sister in order for me to learn how to share, compromise, and cooperate. There were also lots of instances in my childhood wherein I watched that the things that I wanted for myself were given to my sister. People just seemed to love her more. It was then that I developed a very low self-esteem and I eventually transitioned into my Libran personality. I was in grade school back then – and it was interesting that during the time when I never cared about grades and competition and only about living harmoniously in our little school, I just had lots of friends and I unexpectedly aced all of our subjects. I graduated as the valedictorian without me knowing how it happened. However, when I was in high school, things started to go downhill. I was living up to my Libra ideals but I deserted the self-confidence, assertiveness, and self-esteem that I naturally had from my Aries south node. It was then that I experienced being bullied by my teachers, underestimated by my classmates, cheated on by my boyfriends, etc. Too much Libran energy is not a good thing, you know. And so, when I reached college, I took the time to rebuild myself. As a Libran, I was obsessed with beauty. I beautified myself, took care of myself, became a vegan, and all that stuff. So when I came back to my hometown, I felt like a star, you know, because I’ve had a makeover. But something happened to my personality. I became too selfish and self-centered that I’ve ruined my relationships and some friendships (although I do not regret letting go of those that turned out to be untrue to me). Some people, including my relatives, had also become intimidated with me (they admitted it to me). Perhaps it’s because of too much individuality or self-confidence. I don’t know. And so I felt alone once again. Too much Aries energy is not good too. Now I’m trying to balance the Arian and Libran energies in me – but of course, there has to be more Libran energy in me. More femininity. More beauty. More selflessness. More romance (?). Perhaps that is why I am so drawn to feminist studies, feminist books, makeup, beauty, etc. Maybe I was very masculine before that I have abused females in my past lives. I don’t know. There’s something in my past lives that made me want to reincarnate as a female that’s all about beauty in this life.

North Node in the 2nd House, South Node in the 8th House

With my north node in the 2nd house, my current life right now is about making money, having possessions, material things, security – basically about all the things governed by Taurus or the 2nd house. If my north node is there, and that is the theme of my life lessons in this current incarnation, then it means that the things of the 2nd house may be an alien concept to me. I had to be self-sufficient with regards to making money. I have to make money all by myself. And that is very scary, because I grew up being spoon-fed all the time. I am partly a spoiled brat. I know how hard it is to be poor, but I am a lazy bitch. Getting a job for myself makes me scared. I want someone to provide for me and to treat me like a princess. But…with my south node in Aries, that is a definite no-no. I have to get rid of my selfishness and work my ass off. And with my south node in the 8th house, in the past lives I may have exploited someone or some people’s money or resources, or I may have made my living through an illegal manner. I may have been well-acquainted with darkness during my past lifetimes. I may have been a gangster, criminal, drug lord, or whatever. Or I may have been a witch, a sorceress, someone with knowledge about the occult. It’s interesting because ever since I was a child, I was already into the hidden stuff. I love reading books about witchcraft and astrology even though it was forbidden by the Christian religion (my family is Roman Catholic). Also, I have this side wherein I am so allured by dangerous places, situations, beliefs, and relationships. Most of the time it is unconscious. I just find myself in constant danger or in an unorthodox position. Maybe it’s because of the south node in Aries in 8th house. I have too much Martian and Plutonian energy that I have carried with me that it already feels so heavy whenever I learn about my Mars and Pluto placements. I might really have been a warrior before. Because I easily get angry, I am scary when angry, and I sting people so bad despite the love that happened between us before. Things just go red before my eyes when I am hurt in any way and I have this “me versus you” mentality that I have to get rid of in this life. And it’s really hard, maybe because I was so used to fights and wars before. Right now I have to strive to live a very stable and beautiful life. Very Libran and Taurean; very Venusian – in order to make up for my Martian messes in my past lives.  

North Node conjunct Sun in Libra


Now, I want to share a very interesting aspect to my north node. My sun conjuncts it! According to Celeste Teal, this is the definition of that particular aspect:
“With the North Node conjunct the Sun there are special privileges or a boost to achievements – it is like being in the right place at the right time, having considerable luck, mingling and interacting with important people, plenty of material abundance, and so forth. Things just seem to click for such a person and they may be drawn into the limelight or onto the stage. They ride the mainstream. The Sun is a beneficial planet, and the soul may have been given this extra help to ensure sufficient development of his or her ego. In the past there was likely a lack of self-esteem and not enough personal recognition even though the person worked for the benefit of others. The house where the conjunction falls will show where the individuality and leadership may best be expressed. If anyone can get by without having to make retributions, even for wrongs done in this life, it is the person with North Node conjunct the Sun. He or she is spared for now, as in this lifetime they are slated for personal elevation. Arrogance and egotism may result when these cosmic blessings are misused. Masculine figures, including the father, are ruled by the Sun, therefore with the Sun conjunct the North Node, there are strong ties to a father figure, who is of exceptional benefit. The paternal side of the family may be of special help in finding their direction. There are many of royal blood in this group (Teal, 2008).”

Not all people have their sun conjuncting their north node, so they may have a little bit of difficulty in carrying out their life missions. If their suns, for example, conjuncted their south node, then it means that their personality and desires in life are opposite their life purpose. It is indeed a challenging aspect. For my sun conjunct my north node, my personality and desires are already in line with my purpose. It’s like my destiny is already given to me in a silver platter. I just have to work more on the personality that I already have and exalt it. I just feel lucky to have this placement – just like having my Jupiter in Sagittarius conjunct my part of fortune. Imagine how lucky that is! Maybe I am the only that doesn’t recognize my luck in this lifetime. Well, I hate being vain and self-centered again because I am going away from my overused Aries energy, but I LOVE ME!!! And I am so thankful for astrology because it made me have a deeper understanding of who I am and what I am doing here. J

Sources:

Ronngren, Dianne. (2012). Lunar Nodes: Key to Emotions and Life Experiences. California: ETC Publishing.
Teal, Celeste. (2008). Lunar Nodes: Discover Your Soul’s Karmic Mission. Woodbury, Minnesota: Llewelyn Publications.

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