Misunderstood Soul (A Psychic Reading)

In the mediumystics.com forum, there are threads of individuals that request for a picture reading. As I am always intrigued by these stuff, I gave it a shot. I posted a recent picture of myself and Blue Tiger immediately replied and read my picture. I am so thankful for his insights. This is what he wrote:


Hi Anthea! Thank you for the opportunity to read for you. As with any reading, please accept whatever part of this resonates with you and ignore the rest.

In your picture I see a sweet and shy soul. You seem a bit insecure, and wish others were more accepting of you. They are not mean; they simply don’t understand how you think sometimes.

You are a genuinely caring soul, and you think nothing of dropping what you’re doing to help someone else. Even when it is an inconvenience or annoyance, you smile and go to their aid. Admittedly sometimes you dash off to help others out of a sense of duty or obedience.

I’m seeing you standing on a balcony now. The roof overhead seems to be made of wood, and the railings are wood as well. From this balcony I can see the sandy beach and gentle waves. The beach is curved and quite beautiful. An ocean breeze delights your senses. This is not a fancy building at all; instead it is rather simple and earthy. And now a gentle rain is starting to fall.

I feel yearning when I see this balcony scene. From this sense of yearning I get the feeling that this place is a memory of somewhere you have been, a place you love, home. If not, it may be where you wish to find yourself at some future place. 

A cat has just leapt onto the railing of the balcony. This cat is light colored, and is walking along the railing headed straight to you. It seems to recognize you. I can hear it purring as it gets closer, as if you are a long-lost friend.

There is a serene zen-like energy about you. Though your life has many facets, many obligations, you yearn most for quiet “alone time.” You need your quiet time in order to relax, recharge, and reflect. 

You are a dreamer, but you wrestle with how to make your dreams reality. The path going forward is not yet defined in your mind; you find obstacles, both financial and personal, and shift your line of thinking easily. The opinions of others, which are often very vocally expressed, confound and confuse you sometimes, making it hard to latch firmly onto a plan, a goal, and setting out to actually achieve it.

You do not seem to have many really close relationships with family or friends. There is most often a half-step of separation between you and them. Although you sincerely care for and about them, they have very different ways of seeing things.

Bless you ((((( Anthea ))))) I hope some portion of this makes sense for you


It was already past 2am when I read his reply, and I felt a mixture of fear and sadness. Most of what he said really resonated with me. I am really shy and insecure since the moment my mother brought me into this world. And I am a very lonely girl because I almost have no one to share myself with. And I always feel misunderstood so I find myself having enemies or haters. Eventually I isolate myself to have peace of mind because too many people and contact with people for too long kills me. Right now, I am experiencing a very confusing period in my life because my future is not yet carved. I still don’t know what to make of it. And the “cat” part is very intriguing to me. All my life I have been afraid of cats. I also don’t remember a long-lost friend that may resemble a light-colored cat. Maybe I just forgot. But the wooden balcony part is really really accurate though. And I feel like nobody understands me but me. My own family has a very different way of thinking so I have always felt alone in my path. 

Why You Don't Have to be Productive All the Time

Most of us feel bad when we spend our time being idle. For the whole duration of my summer vacation, I feel like I didn’t do anything worthwhile. I don’t have classes, I don’t work – I don’t do anything that society deems to be productive. And I still feel bad about it. I notice that most people (including myself) have to be doing something for progression purposes, because if you haven’t improved after a couple of months, you’re getting left behind. I personally feel that I have to be improving almost every day, enough to surprise people that haven’t seen me in a long time, because I am feeling competitive for the past two years. However, maybe we don’t have to be productive all the time. Maybe life is not all about work, improvements, or competition.

So why don’t we have to be productive all the time?

To enjoy natural beauty.


Take the time to be still, be in the present moment, and notice all the things around you. We miss so much beauty by being preoccupied with “important” things, like the hummingbird sucking on a flower’s nectar, the variety of colours and sizes of the tree leaves, the nostalgic smell of burning leaves, the mild sunlight during afternoons, and the warmth of peaceful plants and playful animals. Sometimes it’s not all about the money or achievements. Sometimes we can just be happy with the high vibration of nature itself which nurtures us. Then we would realize that humans are not the centre of the universe indeed.

To allow our bodies to recharge and rejuvenate.


For me, a single semester in college is enough to rob us of our vitality and health, both mentally and physically. Sometimes even emotionally, when we encounter people in our lives with destructive energies. A single semester already gives enough stress to students that vacations are often seen as a blessing. Personally, I think that summer vacations are not spent wisely through working or studying or doing anything with an attitude of responsibility. But that’s just my opinion. We are humans, not robots, and we definitely need time to rest and recharge. However! Being sedentary is still not good, because or bodies might consider us dead so we may look a bit sickly. While we are resting during a vacation, we can also eat healthy food and exercise. Anything that recharges us.

To relax and be happy.


Why feel guilty about being idle if we are happy anyway? There is nothing wrong with afternoon naps, afternoon teas, watching movies, eating soup, gazing at the sun, and playing with puppies. As we grow older, we often forget how to play again like a child. Not exactly playing like being rowdy, but approaching life with a playful attitude. “Doing nothing,” like Christopher Robin said in Winnie-the-Pooh. It doesn’t hurt to not take life too seriously. Be easy on yourself. Because sometimes idleness = happiness. :)

To make more memories with our loved ones.


Most people on their deathbeds regret that they shouldn’t have worked harder, because it lessened their time spent on their loved ones or keeping in touch again with old friends. We all know that time spent with our true friends, old friends, close relatives, or boy/girlfriends is never wasted, because they make us happy. Some people just have a cheering effect on us – like when we have a bad day, or when we are stressed, their presence alone makes you forget everything that has upset you. Spending time with those people, no matter how idle it may seem, has a very powerful effect on our souls.

To make more time for yourself.


Dealing with the demands of society or universities can be very exhausting. Sometimes we even forget who we are because of too much pressure and stress. It’s time that we learn how to love ourselves or to put ourselves first. When vacation comes, your needs should come first. Eat when hungry, sleep when sleepy, and create when your creativity makes you itch. Enjoy your solitude and listen to your emotions. Expressing emotions, even the ugliest of them (like anger) is very self-loving. You show yourself that you are there for yourself. And you don’t have to pressure yourself to do anything productive if you don’t feel like it.

Things To Do When You Are Sick

Being sick sucks. It is so awful to feel so much physical discomfort and get bedridden for days especially when you have lots of things that you “have to do”. Personally, it is when I start envying my dogs for being free to roam and run and roll over the grass under the sunshine. Sometimes when we are sick, we might as well die because of the extreme pain and the white coating in our tongue that makes food bitter or tasteless. Everything just starts to suck that we feel the need to recover quickly.

Being sick also makes us feel bored – if not already preoccupied with the pain that we feel, so here is my list of things to do when you are sick:

1. Sleep.



Just sleep. Your body needs lots of rest because it needs a lot of energy to fight viruses and restore you to perfect health. Sick people often feel sleepy because they need it. So don’t fight it. It’s a perfect way to let the time pass because at least when you are asleep, you cannot feel the physical discomfort that illnesses bring. 

2. Try to get a warm bath.


Water has a frequency that is closest to source energy and that is why it feels good to swim, take a bath, or just be in contact with water. Choose a warm bath to avoid feeling more chilly. You can also add a generous amount of salt to your bathwater to expel the negative energies in your body that may also be responsible for your illness. Plus, hygiene is very important especially if one is sick. 

3. Eat less/light/alkaline food.



We often have less appetite when we are sick and our taste buds are pretty useless. That is because our bodies need us to eat lightly when we are sick. Most of our energy is devoted to getting rid of the sickness, so less energy must go to digestion. If we happen to be hungry, it is best to avoid meat and other acidic or harmful food. It is advisable to eat an alkaline diet when we are sick (if not all the time) and that consists of raw fruits and vegetables. Or we can just eat soup. The classic chicken noodle soup.

4. Sit in the sunshine.




The sun is the giver of life and energy to all living beings. Plants, as we all know, produce their food through sunlight. Animals that are exposed to the outdoors are more active and happy than animals who are caged or kept inside and out of sunlight. Humans are not different. As Mr. Andreas Moritz, the author of The Amazing Liver and Gallbladder Cleanse, quoted:

The UV light is known to activate an important skin hormone called solitrol. Solitrol influences our immune system and many of our body’s regulatory centers, and, in conjunction with the pineal hormone melatonin, causes changes in mood and daily biological rhythms. The haemoglobin in our red blood cells requires ultraviolet (UV) light to bind to the oxygen needed for all cellular functions. Lack of sunlight can, therefore, be held co-responsible for almost any kind of illnesses, including skin cancer and other forms of cancer. As you are about to find out, it may be highly detrimental to your health to miss out on sunlight. 

5. Read about spiritual stuff on the net.




Yoga, guided meditations, astrology, spiritual people sharing the same symptoms as you, reiki, vegetarianism, Teal Swan, chakra balancing, extraterrestrial beings, grounding or the earth’s healing powers, you name it. I personally go watch or read spiritual stuff to study, be informed, but mostly to comfort myself when times get tough. And of course, I'm talking about New Age stuff -- you can go about it in whatever way you like, as "spirituality" is different for everybody. I think it's better to preoccupy yourself with spiritual stuff especially when you're sick than with gossip or negative stuff.

6. Watch a movie.




Being sick is the best time for being lazy (because you have no choice lol) and watching movies while eating your soup. But if possible, watch something that’s funny or something that has a positive message, something that will lift your spirits up, because you’re fucking sick. Sick people don’t need more negative energies to worsen their situation. You will be surprised how laughter and smiles can make you regain your health faster. 

7. Let someone take care of you.




Sometimes, illnesses remind us that we do not have to pretend that we are strong and self-sufficient all the time. Sometimes we have to acknowledge the fact that it is good to seek for others’ help once in a while, and open up your vulnerable side to them. Because when we are sick, we barely have the energy to even walk or get food for ourselves. Let the people who love us show their love for us. That is one beauty of being sick. 

8. Play with your pets.




Animals are more often in the state of alignment that humans are, that’s why it is so nice to be with them. They look at us with utter acceptance, and play with us as if we haven’t done anything wrong in our lives. They accept us more than we accept ourselves. Whatever we feel insecure about – our pets don’t care, they just love us. They show us what unconditional love is. 

9. Go to nature.




If nature is within your reach – like your backyard or your garden, go there to at least relieve your stress from your sickness. If you are really weak, you can just spend a few minutes there and that is enough. Things in nature, especially the trees, are very receptive and allowing that they vibrate in a very high frequency. Spending time with them can make you feel refreshed and better too. Going back to Mother Nature can sometimes feel like being a child again. 

10. Write.




When you’re sick and you want something to do, you can write about your feelings or about how terrible your sickness is. Let writing be your outlet. Or you can let your imagination run wild – write stories, poems, anything goes. I write about any subject, but mostly about things that I’m passionate about. My feelings also run deep so I just write about my anger, bliss, and sadness. I also try to analyze nonsense sometimes. I just write whatever, not caring whether who reads or not, because writing is my kind of therapy and I love it. 

11. Read.



You can pick one from your pile of books and read it than spend your time in front of your computer and get exposed to radiation. I’m not preventing you from doing it, though. Reading entertains us, stimulates us mentally, and even makes us fall asleep which is better. From my personal experience, I get to rest a lot more when I’m reading a book.

12. Drink lots of water.




When we are sick...maybe we just need to hydrate the fuck out of our bodies! Hahaha. Water helps our body get rid of toxins so this step is incredibly helpful if you want to get well soon. Like sunshine, water is readily available but always taken for granted – yet very essential to our health. Even if water would taste bitter because of our coated tongues when we are sick, still drink

13. Drink herbal teas.


You can have a green tea especially when spending afternoons alone while you are sick. The warmth of the tea can calm your insides. The bitterness of it won’t matter too because your tongue cannot taste things well anyway. The soothing effect of it is perfect for a sick person – you wouldn’t want anything stimulating because that would be too harsh. Your body is still weak. 

14. Talk to someone.




It’s nice to have someone to talk to when you are sick. Well, most of the time we probably want to be alone because the physical discomfort makes us not in the mood to socialize with anybody. However, having someone (it doesn’t have to be many) to talk to, probably through calls or texts, can help us in our recovery as the other person expresses his/her sympathy and affects us with their positivity. 

Horribly Sick (Energy Shift Symptoms?)


I’ve been confused as to why I kept experiencing these flu-like symptoms since last week. I’ve been living healthily as long as I can remember (actually I was just in a vegetable state), but I suddenly caught flu one day. And it kept coming back despite all the pills that I had been swallowing. It was very horrible because my whole body (muscles and joints) was aching and my temperature was so high and I kept feeling chilly. However, I didn’t have any cold or cough so it was really strange. I don’t know what kind of virus entered my body that it reacted that way. Also, one thing that surprised me is that while I was sick, I was overly sensitive to food: I could not eat most of my favourite foods anymore (like crabs, pork, beef, etc.). Just the smell of them made me nauseous. Meat was really a no-no for me, for my body reacted like it was threatened, especially if the meat is fried. I smell a dead dog when I eat fried meat. My senses were just heightened to the point that it was already probably annoying to my family because my sickness caused me certain food aversions that I had no choice but to eat raw fruits and vegetables.  I was also experiencing diarrhea. But I wasn't drinking much water despite the dehydration. Last week was a really awful one for me.

After a week of being horribly sick, I tried going out to the movies with my boyfriend, thinking that I already regained my energy and health – but in the middle of our date I started experiencing a terrible migraine. We already bought movie tickets so we decided to finish the damn movie. Yet my migraine was so intense that I was also feeling nauseous in front of the screen and seeing blurry visions. I felt like my head was splitting into two. When the movie ended, my boyfriend and I went out right away and he sent me home. My temperature was so high then. And I vomited after I changed my clothes. The migraine continued for one more day, which was yesterday. Yesterday, I was asleep for almost the whole day because I was avoiding my headache. When the night came, I was really desperate about my migraine so I decided to google the possible causes of the symptoms that I have experienced. Medical websites annoyed me so I googled the spiritual reasons. Suddenly, the universe shed light on me! I found out that I was only experiencing energy shift symptoms. Of course I might just have caught a virus on a physical level, but I really believe that I am experiencing a physical reaction to energy shifts (weird because the galactic alignment started on 2012), and I have probably raised my vibratory rate seeing how I am not already a match to certain kinds of food.

I desperately tried “reiki” on my head (although I wasn't familiar with it at all) and the pain subsided a little. Then I remembered that I have a rose quartz bracelet in my room. I put the cold crystal on the aching parts of my head while showing the act to my mother. She thought I was crazy and just laughed it off. But just minutes later, my migraine was gone. It responded to my own energy healing and not to the painkillers I have taken. Partly I am thankful to Teal Swan for showing what crystals are and how pure the vibrations they hold are. My migraine just couldn’t coexist with my crystal’s frequency. And hopefully, that was the end of my suffering. But basically, being sick like this led me to a vegetarian diet (not yet a strict one, but I'm getting there :D). I’ve been wanting to try that for a long time since plant-based eaters have a higher vibration that meat-based eaters, but apparently my body has become more sensitive and intolerant of junk. I’ve learned that the physical pain we experience are energy blocks that are flushed by our opening chakras (though that’s not always the case). Toxins and negative energies are flushed through our blood, thus making us experience flu-like symptoms. And I’ve learned that the migraine that I experienced could be either an energy block from my third eye chakra or crown chakra or both. So the fact that my migraine is already gone could mean that my crown and third eye chakras are already healthy. I couldn't wait to be a damn spiritual person! 

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