Happily In Love

I know that this might just be an evanescent teenage relationship, but right now I am just so happy and I feel so lucky with the man that I am with. He is not the handsomest guy in the world, but his attractiveness is just right to be lusted by sexually hungry women. His sense of humor and friendliness also makes other girls crush on him too, but I am just so lucky that at the first time he saw me, he already seized the opportunity to make me his. He has an aura of innocence around him, although he would insist that he’s far from that. I was single for two years in college and that period was very hard for me, being a Libra who loves to be in love, because all the guys that I got involved with eventually retreat from wooing me either because they discovered that they don’t like all aspects of my personality or because of some sick rumors jealous people make about me. From their mistakes, I made a checklist of my ideal man. He has to be very masculine, athletic, dominant, takes care of me, treats me like a princess, overprotective, not minding rumors about me, and very proud of me. Guess what? The moment 2014 came, the universe immediately granted my wish. I didn’t know it at that time but as I got to know him, I was so certain that he embodied all the qualities that I wished for in a partner.

There were already many moments that I’m like this, idealizing my boyfriend like some sort of a prince charming, but I cannot let this moment pass by now. He is very sexually attractive, and we both wanted to have sexual intercourse because we’re already past 18 and we are completely in love, but I’m still a virgin even though we’re already together for more than a year. Sometimes I find myself pressuring him to please deflower me but he really refuses. He’s already contented with hugs and kisses and a little teeny bit of lovemaking, because he hates seeing me hurt. He’s already fucked more than ten girls, and refusing to have sex with me makes me think of how much he loves me because he respects me as a woman and saves the real sexual experience between us in our honeymoon. Another thing that I like about him is that he always shows me off to his friends and family, always puts me in a pedestal, and is not afraid of PDAs when he’s with me. Whenever we go to church together, he gets really touchy (in a protective way) and kisses me on the lips during the “peace be with you” time. His touches really make me feel how fond he is of me. You know, I can go on forever saying everything that he does for me. He’s really hard and masculine, but he gets really soft when it comes to me. He does things that he hate to make me happy like taking long walks searching for isaw. And he also always carries my bag when we go out so I wouldn’t have to carry anything. He loves it when I cook for him and even helps me. We’re even like partners-in-crime in the kitchen because we experiment with some ingredients so we always eat weird but yummy stuff. I am just so lucky to finally meet my match. We are so in love that we can die right now.

I am not yet sure whether my boyfriend is the one that I will marry, but I am so glad that I ended up with him. Two of my ex-boyfriends have gotten their girlfriends pregnant just recently, so hardships are in store for them right now. Deep inside I feel thankful that I am not the one they impregnated, but if I’m gonna be really honest, I feel a little bit of sadness and a huge amount of joy feeling that I am finally avenged by unseen forces. I still feel the need to show them how happy, successful, and beautiful I will be for the next years that will come to show them that they lost a rare and precious jewel. Meanwhile, I feel like the luckiest girl in the world with my boyfriend. I am so taken care of, and I really feel like a princess in our dates because he is so prince-like and I always wear pretty dresses for him. This period in my life feels like great relief because in the past few years, I was always taken for granted like some kind of a germ. Now I am surrounded by people who love me for me. My bestfriend, high school clique, boyfriend, family, and relatives that surround our house. Everywhere I turn, there’s always someone who loves me. And amidst all of them, I can say that my boyfriend is the greatest person that reflects the love of the universe for me. :) 

The world does not revolve around me.

Lately, after I’ve become Marimar (the pretty version of myself), I’ve always expected the world to revolve around me because in most cases, it does. I won’t exactly call myself a conceited person, but I’m kind of expecting that I already have the power to get almost everything I want – and for now I want people’s attention more, despite being timid, because there’s still a hole in my being that needs to be filled through gaining attention. When I was a little girl, all attention went to my little sister. It’s not that I am jealous of her being the star, I didn’t even know about all that, but I felt really deprived of my parents’ attention which created this big hole in my being. I’ve tried all sorts of things to please them like always being on top of my classes and being a good girl (which led to my natural inhibition and suppression), but I still ended up as the black sheep, and I blamed my plain looks for this frustration. My alter ego is Maria, the shy, quiet, snobbish, solitary, pessimistic, and critical side of me – and I just transform back to her after a long day, when I become exhausted of making the best of being Marimar. At the end of the day, I realized that my true self was not just Marimar (I uncovered her after finally gaining confidence), but both Maria and Marimar. They are the light and dark aspects of my personality but there is no such thing as light and dark. Only society dictates what is acceptable and unacceptable. The plain truth is that Maria plus Marimar is equal to Maria Anthea, the authentic me. I have to stop rejecting Maria because I would only be making an enemy of myself.

In almost every social gatherings, I expect people to admire and pay attention to me but yesterday, which was my aunt’s birthday, there were so many people that we have not been taken care of very well. We were mostly left to ourselves, doing our own thing, and I was so frustrated that I wanted to go home right away. This is a very sad idea to think about; but last night, I realized that the world does not revolve around me. Everyone has their own thing to think about. And even though I am pretty and attractive, some people will just walk past me or just look briefly and then move on. But that doesn’t decrease my worth, however. I am not an idol to worship. I am not a goddess. I am not Britney Spears. Or not yet. The good thing was that I wasn’t completely ignored last night. Some people went near me like moths to the light, while some people didn’t because they were not moths. Yet last night’s incident made me realize that I am just a part of the whole. I cannot stand alone by myself. And that incident made me learn one more thing about myself: I hate being ignored. That explains my beauty routine, makeup, big earrings, and sexy outfits. But you know me – that’s just me.

Yes, the whole world does not revolve around me. But the good thing is, my own world does revolve around myself. And I have myself to take care of myself. My own perspective will guide me through the paths I want to take in life. Every big desire that I have will be achieved, and I will be the ideal and perfect person in my own perspective. Caring about what other people think only gives us suffering, and we all know that, so what’s left for us to do is to care so much about what we need, think, and desire. I am my own person, and I need myself more than other people. Other people can destroy and harm us, but we can always count on ourselves to love ourselves. I am really the kind of person who thinks she is always right (at least I’m admitting it lol) – but nothing is wrong with that as long as being right concerns me and my life. I really don’t let anyone dictate what I should do. I really butt heads with people like that. The whole world does not revolve around me, but I can trust myself to go on with my life and achieve whatever I want. In my own little world, I will always be pretty, sexy, and interesting. (It’s better to think of yourself that way than to think of yourself as inferior. I’ve been there.) And no one can be in charge of my own world but me. 

Super Base (A Post about Sex and Sexuality)

A week ago, my high school friends (ABNU) decided to have a bonding overnight, as we traditionally do whenever we take vacations from school. When the middle of the night has come, and nearly all of us were already intoxicated, the “aminan” (confession) session has begun. A friend spun a bottle and my cousin *Francis admitted that he wasn’t a virgin already, and that he did it with another girl for three consecutive nights when he still had a girlfriend. It was around the time of Christmas, so he labelled it as his Christmas bonus. The next one was *Robyn, but almost everyone groaned as we all knew that she wasn’t a virgin anymore since we were juniors in high school and that she had already done it with approximately six guys. The next one was me. I admitted that I was still a virgin, but an additional question from Robyn made me admit that my boyfriend and I had gone to “base 3” and the only thing that we didn’t do was penetration because it hurts me, my boyfriend is uncomfortable seeing me get hurt, and he is so afraid of impregnating me even though he already fucked almost ten girls when he was still single (I am his first girlfriend). My friends were a bit shocked, but partly relieved because I am still a virgin, and asked questions about blowjobs and the like but I didn’t entertain them as I feel harassed by private questions like that. I decided to go to the restroom for a little while and when I went back to my friends, *Shalyah was already admitting something – she and her guy had already been to the third base, same as me and my boyfriend. We were all shocked as she was raised by very strict parents, and she was one of the prettiest in our group of friends. What’s more shocking is that she told us that the guy was still a suitor. She told me that she had the bravery to admit that after I admitted mine, and that’s what led to our “rare” closeness that night.

While the group was laughing and exchanging jokes, Shalyah and I kept to ourselves and whispered about our sexcapades and discovered how exciting the road we took was. Some friends were snooping and laughed at some words that they overheard, and they labelled us the “Super Base” (from Nikki Minaj’s Super Bass song) because of having reached the third base and because being not virgins is a bit unusual for our group. We’re like the only ones left virgins in the whole world. Our other friends even felt pressure for still being 100% virgins. That night was amazing because we got to open our hearts and dark secrets for our friends and have them understand the reasons for why we did that. I personally felt a bit left out of this modern “sexual” generation that we are in and that I was jealous of the girls that my boyfriend had fucked before me so I also wanted a complete sexual experience from him. I want him body and soul. Their friendly understanding for me and Shalyah was so nice that we promised to update each other of our next sexual experiences. We even hugged each other like crazy because we felt for the first time that we were going through the same things and our thoughts were almost the same – another proof that everything in this universe is one and interconnected. We left each other feeling that our emotional bond has gone through the next level.

Ever since I entered puberty, I have been curious about sex and my genitals. I do masturbate a lot, because I am a very sexual being. I really am. There was a period in my life wherein I adhered to a religion that’s all about suppression and self-sacrifice, so my lust was much suppressed and I criticized everyone who engages in premarital or casual sex. However, much change has taken place and I’m out there flaunting my sexuality (yet not engaging in sex) through the way I groom myself and through the inner sexuality that comes out of me because of my astrological placements. When you see my personal or dominant planets, you will see why I am the way I am:

Ascendant: Virgo (Mercury)
Sun: Libra (Venus)
Moon: Cancer (Moon)
Mercury: Libra (Venus)
Venus: Scorpio (Mars and Pluto)
Mars: Scorpio (Mars and Pluto)

My Virgo ascendant gives me a virginal appearance, personal impression, and outer personality. Virgo ascendant is very feminine too, since it is the sign of the virgin – think Beyonce when not performing onstage. It is also a mercurial sign, therefore I am overall ruled by Mercury, which contributes to my restlessness when it comes to mental stimulation. I consider myself very emotional, which I really am (considering that my moon is in Cancer), but people who don’t know me surely see me as a mental person with little capability of using my heart. My sun in Libra is a very good placement when it comes to physical beauty since Venusian suns (Taurus and Libra) have obvious physical beauty in them. (Observe the Taureans and Librans in your life to see my point.) My moon in Cancer is the natural home of the moon which makes me very moody and emotional, yet very feminine. I am a very, very feminine person. The traditional roles for women are innate in me, like nurturing, cooking, and the like because of my Cancer moon. My Libra mercury is not that important, it just means that I think and communicate in a Libran way – I love talking about relationships and am very keen about social labelling. The venus and mars placements are very important when it comes to love and desire, and I am just so lucky to have them both in the sign of Scorpio. Scorpio venuses are often found to be sexy, and can attract people sexually even when they don’t do anything. People often have secret crushes to them. Mars in Scorpio people have incredible sexual magnetism just like the Scorpio venus, but just a bit more intense. People have intense reactions to them, like intense repulsion or intense attraction, without knowing why – but most of the time people are mysteriously attracted to them. Like they wanna fuck them without really knowing why. Venusian placements can give a lot of beauty to a person, but Pluto (Scorpio) puts charisma and sex appeal to a person. I have all venus, mars, and pluto in the sign of Scorpio. One celebrity with venus and mars in Scorpio is Leonardo Dicaprio. When I saw him when I was very little (3 y/o), I had a tingling feeling in my genitals and I just fantasized about French kissing him (I see it in the television always). That’s how strong his sexual magnetism is. And now you get the idea of what effects venus and mars in Scorpio has on a person.

Just very recently, an older guy from my past (that I had a terrible crush on) started texting me again (I lost contact with him because I got angry and he’s just horny around me) even though he already has a girlfriend and I already have a boyfriend.
D: Opo. Pero nagtetext pa rin ako sayo. I can’t resist you kasi eh.
A: Tinetext mo lang ako pag horny ka eh wahaha
D: Ahe. Nakakahorny ka talaga kase
A: Bakit naman?
D: Di ko alam din ba. May ganun ako sayong nararamdaman kaya naaattract ako iba sex appeal mo eh.
I was very disappointed with this person because what I wanted before was a serious relationship, but he was so determined to fuck me and be the first guy to take away my virginity. I remember Lawrence the psychic told me that guys are attracted to me because they want to have sex with me, period. Sex. Period. That is frustrating, you know, since I want to be taken care of like knights going gaga over a damsel in distress. I didn’t want to be some kind of a sex object. However, I realized later on that I have so much power, since intense sexual attractiveness can get me the things that I want sometimes through manipulation. And lately, I don’t see this as a problem since I recognized that I am a very sexual person and that I always wanted to be satisfied sexually. I’ve always been a fan of Cleopatra, Britney Spears, and Adriana Lima mostly because I want their beauty and charm, but what they have in common really is sexual attractiveness. They are seen as sexual objects like Marilyn Monroe and instead of seeing it as degrading, I see it as very powerful. It’s nice that I have finally embraced my sexuality and decided to flaunt it for the purpose of self-expression.

*Names have been changed.


At this point in my life I am suddenly surrounded by relatives – most of them were lastly seen for more than a decade. While I was growing up as a schoolgirl and a preteen, almost none of them came looking for me or my family. Pretty much all of us were too busy living our lives without each other then; probably because in my childhood we had too much company of each other. The ages 9 – 15 for me was very crucial for a child, because during that period it undergoes too many changes physically and psychologically, and I also think that during that time a child really needs the support and the tender loving care from its family and relatives. But for me however, my own family were my enemies and I felt like a black sheep, and the imagined distance of my once-close relatives added to my sufferings and core belief that I was alone in the world. Most of you probably already know that I was a geeky, unattractive child who suffered from inferiority complex. I did not really realize how far I have gone vibrationally until my relatives from all over the province gushed about how different I have grown from the plain child that I was.

Lately, the relatives and older cousins that took care of me and my sister in our childhood love coming to our house and ask how we are doing. The moment that they see me, they really gush at how I pretty I am now. (Am that I ugly back then?) They were in awe at how much I’ve grown, how Thea is still Thea but just a wee bit more charming. They’d talk to me, hug me, get my attention, compliment me, until all the attention was mine and my sister was completely ignored. Yes, this kind of phenomenon happens in my life now, when in my childhood my sister was the one who gets attention and love because she was cute and I was always left in the corner, lonely and sullen, feeling unattractive all the time (as a girl, my self-worth is pretty much attached to my loveliness). It’s like every single time, they notice nothing about me except for my beauty and physical features. They treat me like how I wanted to be treated all my life, which is like a princess that came out of a fairytale book (pardon my exaggerations). I spent most of my childhood acing my classes and learning shit for the sole purpose of being on the top of the class, but beauty occupied my mind the instant I became a teen. As a result I flunked some of my subjects, but nonetheless I think I’ve attained that prettiness that I have been wishing for all my life. And I thank my relatives for confirming that, since believe it or not, I haven’t still gotten rid of my inferiority complex 100%. I also thank the law of attraction for letting human beings attain what they focus hardly on.

But really, our house right now is surrounded by houses of relatives. When I was a child, we were like living all by ourselves in the wilderness but this sudden coming of our relatives in our lives and surroundings is a warm blessing from the universe, since we can always count on them in times of need. Other people can treat us like trash simply because they don’t know us but our relatives rarely do that. Sometimes I get irritated when my relatives suddenly visit our house because I am a very private person who needs a lot of time for myself but later on I realized that they may be just pulling me out of my loneliness. Sometimes I even get a bit emotional in their presence because I am reminded of the warm memories that we shared in my childhood. I can only remember warmth and laughter from them most of the time. I’ve only come to the realization just now how important family is; after all, they are a reminder that everything in existence is interconnected and not separate to each other, regardless of the physical separation that we experience in this three-dimensional world. 

A New World of Occult, Medieval Punishment, and Nonconformity

They say that Russia is (or was) a backward country, but I say that the whole world is backward. There are so many problems and sufferings not just among the human race but among all the creatures of the earth, so how can we not be a backward planet? Throughout the history of human race, there are many recorded (or just noticed) UFO landings and crashes that are presumably extraterrestrial in origin. I personally think that these extraterrestrial beings have taken fancy in the human race or in the earth itself because of the ways that we go on living our lives. Some capitalists earn two million dollars per day while most children in Africa are dying of starvation. Isn’t that ironic? We’re not really sure if these aliens wanted to help or wanted to take advantage of our current situation. But what I think is that these UFO landings are a result of the scandals that earth has shown that made their way into the universal newspaper.

The problems in the earth are divided into political, economic, and social – although these three are certainly interrelated. If my own personal opinions are welcomed together with the facts, then I’ll bluntly say that I never really focus on these world problems partly because I don’t care (I’m not proud of it) and partly because I am not aware of the facts. One political problem that I see is that democracy is not serving its highest purpose anymore. I understand that this governmental system existed after people realized that the monarchical system is only a fancy and idealistic show of a king, a queen, and a castle, and has only created feudalism which is responsible for the social hierarchy that is very non-egalitarian. Democracy existed for a free and equal representation of people and for them to elect their own national leaders – but in the way I see it, it is only the facade of democracy that the government wanted to show. I do not see democracy in the cheatings and murders around the time of elections. People with thick faces use their charisma and proficiency in lying to get to a high political position for money. Nothing else but money. Also, I find the policemen useless. Almost no one is afraid of the police (except for little children maybe) because they aren’t trying so hard anyway. Most of them abuse their power in order to commit crimes themselves. I find them to be really really useless. They’re just like the security guards of prisons. I may be generalizing but watching news about bad policemen, people would really lose their faith in them.

For the economic problems, many would blame capitalism for being responsible for the extreme poverty that’s happening in the world. Well, after reading some articles, I finally lost my prejudice against communism because capitalism is really unfair. It’s like bringing back the monarchy in an economical way. The real power is in the European banks, but they work to protect the interests of the financial capitalists. Now I understand why many people antagonize the US. It is because they are the most corporate-run country in the world and therefore the country that is inhabited by most capitalists. Dangerous capitalists. It is because of money that weird stuff is being produced and exported internationally like foods that are genetically modified (GMO), illegal drugs (which we know can be deadly and dangerous to our psyche), and so on. It’s rare to find fresh merchandises nowadays – most merchandise has undergone factory processes and I have recently known that the hygiene stuff that we put on our bodies either during or after bath (like shampoos and lotions) are bad for our bodies. I am not pushing this information to you people but what I knew from medical intuitives that speak on Youtube is that when you look at the list of ingredients of a product and there is at least one ingredient that you don’t know the meaning of or your grandparents don’t know about (e.g. parabens) then that is risky to our health. We become more and more dependent on processed products that the number of people with chronic illnesses is significantly increasing too. Fruits and vegetables are just around us, looking at us longingly, waiting for us to eat them. It is ironic that the unnoticed foods are those that would bring us back to a state of perfect health.

Meanwhile, I see many social problems in the world, especially regarding the school system. I have a lot of resistance to this because I am a victim of a bad school system when I was in high school. My teachers bullied me too because someone badmouthed me to them, and I thought being (fortunately) admitted to UP would be my revenge. It was a public high school with lots of corruption and unfair treatment to poor students that they wouldn’t benefit from. Going back to the topic, here are the main problems that I see: It is a complete waste of time that students are forced to learn things that they don’t want to learn or are not good at. We all have our strengths and weaknesses, and I think it’s better to develop the strengths rather than the weaknesses. A little child is not a brat; it just clearly understands what he/she wants because they are fresher from the spiritual realm. Therefore, if a child is good in art rather than solving math problems which he/she tried hard to steer clear of, it is a better idea to just enrol that child in art classes rather than spend money on tutors that would make him/her good at everything. Nobody is good at everything, let’s be honest. We all have our specialties; and unfortunately for the children who used to lean towards art, they eventually forget their gifts because of the educational system that values science and math more than art, or the left brain over the right brain. It is because society thinks that when people pursue their artistic dreams, they would live happily but poorly, so why not take accountancy or engineering instead? I am really in resistance to that belief that society has. My fourth year in high school was my most rebellious stage, so I picked Literature courses in all of my college admission tests and got accepted. We get discriminated sometimes (especially by people with scientific courses) but we don’t care, as long as we see that there is a beautiful purpose why literature exists.  

I think that most academic institutions especially the public ones (I’m speaking from personal experience) do not really care about children’s well being. Rather, they impose strict rules partly because to avoid chaos and partly because the students are being taught to suppress their inner passions and desires and just be conformist citizens that are easily controlled by people on top of the social hierarchy. Students are forced to learn by using fear, instead of inspiration. Science and math are more valued than art. Imagination is neglected, and there is a clear bias in logic. Schools and universities want children to embrace conformity and are suppressing innovators, who are supposed to be the hope of this world. I am not surprised why science fiction portrays future humans as robotic. Our current system already turns us into robots by suppressing our feelings (seeing it as hindrance for social harmony) and making us conform to the dull ideals of society.

It is hard for one person to come up with an ideal solution for the problems of the world, except when that particular person holds great power internationally, like Barrack Obama for instance. It is those first-world nations, or first-world leaders who really have the power to eradicate the current world order and replace it with a new one that really supports equality. The people at the top have enough power to change the world; but the problem is that they turn a blind eye to people who are starving to death or those who just really need help like the Filipinos in order to satisfy their selfish desires. Rallying is not enough, or not effective, if the people in authority addressed by the rallies are not in a receptive state to those complaints. It is not enough, although it helps a little, that people are aware. The power is in the hands of the government and the rich capitalists, so the burden is in their conscience – if ever they have any.

For the political problems, there should be a strict transparency in the government – meaning the every action of politicians needs to be monitored by the nation through the media. The media should not be biased too; and any signs of bias shown by the media would make them lose their jobs. No secrets are allowed, especially regarding the funds that these politicians just throw for their luxurious lifestyle. I know that transparency cannot be forced – but to make sure that the nation would have a leader with a pure heart, let us not give them any special privileges or high salaries. Let them just have P10,000 more in their salary compared to the ordinary government employees. Let the politicians live ordinary lives to avoid corruption. If they have more salary, they’d have more money to pay killers for their own benefit. The politicians should also not be spared of criminal punishments by the law. It would be unfair for the whole nation. If a politician like Gloria Macapagal Arroyo shows up again in another identity and wreaks havoc on our national economy, then death penalty would be the best punishment for that. Philippine democracy is too weak and an authoritarian government (but still not dictatorial) is what we need to eliminate national parasites. I am still not sure if that is called communism but communism for me is a bit too harsh, dull, and colorless.

I also want to change how the justice system and criminal punishment works. Before, I wanted to be a lawyer to defend innocent people. I didn’t listen when my mother said that lawyers do nothing but lie just to win their cases. That’s not justice at all. However, I realized years later that she was right. Law students at first hope to be lawyers to fight for what is right, but that’s not what happens when they graduate. For them, being a good lawyer is being a good liar. My reason for leaving that dream behind back then was because of my morals (I was extremely religious and adhered to certain rules like not eating pork) but now that I am an “un-religious” person, meaning not adhering to any religion but still believes in a supreme being or Source, I left behind the dream of taking up law because I find it boring, dull, and restrictive. I would just lose years of my life that I could spend with freedom for something that I do not really enjoy doing. Recently I watched a series entitled “How to Get Away with Murder” and I feel outraged by how justice system works which is controlled by connections, manipulation, and greed. We cannot really trust the authorities right now. This is not an original idea but what I plan to do is to bring back the harsh punishment system of the Middle Ages because I think that is more effective than our “permissive” justice system now. The medieval era has very inhumane methods of killing criminals, and that includes the guillotine. I’d like “an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth” be the main idea of the new justice system. A killer should be killed (the killing depends on the brutality he used on his victims), a thief should have his hand chopped off, and so on. I’d like especially the politicians to be subject to these kinds of punishment because the fate of the whole nation is in their hands. In the French Revolution, they have done it to Louis VI and Marie Antoinette, so why can’t we? But in terms of knowing who is innocent or guilty, the government should hire psychics (people with extrasensory abilities) in order to know who is guilty or not. We cannot trust lawyers.

For the solution for the economic problems, I’m having doubts whether to eradicate capitalism or not. We are living in an exciting world because of capitalism; but on the other hand, it is also the one responsible for the starving people who are probably half or more than half of the world’s population. If I eradicate capitalism, then I would also be eradicating my dream of being a star and being super rich. To alleviate people from poverty, the professionals that will have the biggest amount of salary from the government are those who go into the farthest and poorest towns and help the poor. It is a universal fact that money makes the world go round so I must use money for the greater benefit of the human race. To get rid of poverty, we must not punish the rich or the bourgeoisie because they are rich. We must not make them go down from their level. Instead, the right thing to do is to just alleviate those who are in the lowest of the low into a higher level.

For the social problems of the world, I believe that changing the current educational system would make a large difference for the human race because schools and universities are largely responsible for the development and the molding of people into good citizens of the world. People should get educated according to their strengths, and not force them to focus on their weaknesses, in order to produce a productive society. After all, we are more productive when we are doing what we want to do, right? That way we will not feel like working at all. People are like notes in a guitar. We exist to be in perfect harmony with each other. The D is D and we cannot turn it into C because D has its own purpose which is to be D. C as well. You cannot force it to be like the other notes because C did not exist to be A, B, D, and so on. However, our current educational system forces people to be what they are not. And I do not like it (and I know that most people as well) because after years of schooling, we often forget who we really are and what we would really like to do just to fit in the society’s definition of what a successful person is. I want students to learn from inspiration and not because of fear or a sense of obligation because learning because of the latter reason would not really make a student learn.

I want the new educational system to give art more importance, and therefore making it equal to science. For a long period of time, society has given more importance to the left brain hemisphere. But in this new educational system, I want the integration of both the right and left brain hemisphere because if that happens, you’re unbeatable. Also, I want the new educational system to be open-minded to all religions or to those who decide to have no religion. Some religious schools are really biased in their own religion and think that all other religions are wrong or something like that. I don’t want the future generation to be narrow-minded. The domination of science for a long time has vilified occult, superstitious beliefs, spirituality, and astrology so I think it would make sense if the new educational system would be open to studying occult (no black magic) to uncover the secrets of the universe and to fully accept that there is more to life than what we physically see. Of course these subjects can only be taken by those who are interested. Things like chakra, astrological charts, mercury retrograde, quantum physics, and extraterrestrial beings would be learned by these lucky students. We should have no prejudice against these things because prejudice clouds reason. And most of all, since the new educational system values freedom more than anything else, it would also encourage true self-expression instead of conformity. That is when our true selves will radiate through our bodies. And we will be free at last.

These are the solutions that I have thought of; and I did not necessarily make a new world order like communism because I feel like the world only needed some heavy revisions. This is a new world where the occult is welcome and not demonized, where conformity is eradicated in order for us to express ourselves better, and where the rich people are not brought down but the poor people are brought up in the scale. But if what we aim for is complete equality, then I don’t think it will ever happen. Equality is achieved between two yellow balls of the same size and weight. That’s what I think of equality. We are all made different, yet we all have great purposes and potentials. What we make of ourselves is not for the government or for the world order to decide. I personally think that communism limits us and takes away our freedom even though it may alleviate the poor people from their low state. We need a world that has more freedom, except for the criminal punishment. The solutions that I have offered above may only be implemented with the help of those people in high positions and the richest capitalists. But as individuals, we can only help in small ways that spread positivity in the planet. It may seem idealistic, but I guarantee you that these can help decrease suffering: eating a healthy diet, smiling more, recycling and picking up litter, helping an old person cross the street, taking care of stray animals, complimenting and encouraging someone, giving gifts and hugs, laughing with your friends, inspiring others, adding beauty to the world through creating art or through beautifying yourself, donating money to charitable institutions, and so on. There are unlimited ways. And yes, the world has so many problems, but I advise people to just focus on the solutions and not on the problems because if we believe that the law of attraction governs this universe that we live in, what we focus on is what we will get. Focusing on suffering will result in more suffering. Focusing on the injustice that happens in the world will only make it worse. Therefore, as impractical as this may sound, let us spread positivity and beauty in the world to finally make it a better place. :)

Where is the Real Beauty? (A Psychic Reading)

From Marie:

Good afternoon,

You are requesting this reading as you know you are sexually attractive on the outside but you question it on the inside. You feel the need to ‘change’ something and it has crossed your mind to change your personality.

I do not see that you need to change your personality or how you are towards others, but improve your weaknesses and turn it into your greatest strengths.

Generally, you have great intentions and you are good hearted. You are an extremely knowledgeable person, very smart, leader at heart, analytical, skeptical and over analyze things. Those traits are both your strengths and weaknesses. You are the type to be described by other people ‘mind over’ matter, in the past people have labelled you almost ‘geeky’ behind your back. You are the “believe nothing, question everything’.

However, it appeared that your sexual attractiveness is being blocked by your almost aggressive and know it all personality. The people who have been there for you has described you once or twice, you could be dominating as well. You need to let other people ‘lead you’ and trust you.  Some associates/acquaintances have distanced themselves from you because they have said ‘you know too much about everything’ in life, love life and etc. To your defence, you DO as you believe your opinions are valid. As much as you say that other people’s opinion do not matter to you as they do not know the real you, in your ‘quiet time’ you think of what people’s opinions are about you. You may not know what some people really say but you feel it.

You strive to attract beautiful people in your life. There are people you have observed that you would like to be a part of their group of as well as individuals you would like to see eye to eye with and build relationships with. You have tried before and you feel like ‘they do not get you’.

You would increase your sexual attractiveness more not by looking outwards but on the inside. You are sexually attractive, and you will be more than just that when you take your time and get to know people slowly.  You feel like you need to improve inwards and you are right. Listen more to people and speak less. Many people would come to you and tell you their problems, issues, happenings in their life; however many times too that you have always assumed they come to seek your advice. Let other people take the lead without a pre-conceived opinion of what will happen. Enjoy the little mysteries of life more!

Thank you for contacting me. In exchange for the reading and insights, I only ask for your confirmation and feedbacks. Should a reading come to pass or the situation that was described is accurate, I would be extremely grateful if you let me know. Once feedbacks are given, please do not hesitate to contact me for further readings.

Thanks again,


I guess I'm naturally born with Hermione-like tendencies! :))

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